"I'm afraid of:: not having enough time. Not enough time to understand people, how they really are, or to be understood myself. I'm afraid of quick judgments and mistakes that everybody makes. You can't fix them without time. I'm afraid of seeing snapshots instead of movies."
It’s not the fear of growing up or aging or having to make big decisions that affect other people. I’m afraid of forgetting all the little feelings and moments that you feel right now. I am afraid of letting moments pass by without recognizing them. A bucket list of all your hopes or dreams or things that give you a rush can breathe life back into you that you didn’t even know you could feel.
My friends and I put together a list of things we all want to do before we leave one another...Some are for our own individual needs but most are for the thrill of this short and speedy life. This list wasn’t made in fear that we were going to die soon but because we wanted to make sure we were truly living. Some on the list are:
1) Say yes to something completely unexpected.
2) Every day laugh so hard you cry.
3) Learn something new about yourself and don’t be afraid.
4) Do something nice for a complete stranger.
5) Get in the car and go somewhere with no exact destination in mind. Pack a small bag and money for food.
6) Change someone’s opinion about you from negative to positive.
7) Amaze someone unexpected or amaze someone who doesn’t seem to ever be amazed.
8) Tell someone exactly how you feel and have no regrets.
This list isn’t about traveling to some distant far away country, climbing some impossible mountain or asking out the love of your life. It’s about being the love of your own life. This list is more about doing things you might not otherwise ever do if you didn’t challenge yourself to step out of your safety zone, to make yourself comfortable with the uncomfortable and to be able to find yourself in that process.
The list is more about becoming the person you hope to be. It’s not about taking chances but about making your life filled with things that make you happy--and maybe making someone else happy along the way.
It’s about at the end of the day, the year, your life, you can look back and be proud of what seemed to be little accomplishments that may have changed your life or someone else’s in the process. Some day when I have a flashback of my whole life, I somehow don’t think it’s going to be about the major events. I think it’s going to be about those little things that, at the time, don’t have any significance but are really the things that make you or someone you knew a better or happier person.
“You measure yourself by the people who measure themselves by you”.
"The tragedy of life is not that it ends so soon, but that we wait so long to begin it." ~W. M. Lewis
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